Pre-School Jitters

i can hardly recall myself
dreading going to school
though i could safely say
i never did really like it
(except primary school)
i can't recall feeling the
same way i do now.

i recall my childhood
"my first day at school"
tight grip on mummy's hand
wailing at the top of my voice
refusing to enter the kindergarten

why do i feel this way now?

bleeding eyes
trickling down
streams of hot tears

fill my thoughts
with happy things
would you?