But don't you think,

that it's better to be extremely happy for a short while,

even if you lose it,

than to be just okay for your whole life?

I've often wondered about that. Do you believe that?

Then

I think about all the waiting, and wondering and the joy of seeing him,

after not seeing him for weeks, months:

the joy of being able to touch him,

the luxury of knowing where he is,

of knowing he loves me.

"Yes, I do."

Do you?